In the two years I have known Katie I have never seen her cry. In fact it became a bit of a joke between us that I would have to take her a soppy DVD to get the tears flowing. She said to me on a few occasions that if she started she would be scared she wouldn't stop. She's had a motherfucker of a 2014 so far, anything that could go wrong has and the reality of things is weighing very hard on her. I've been trying to tell her it will get better, that this is just her time to wade through it and she will resurface happy again. She told me she doesn't know if she can take much more pain and honestly I wonder if she can too.